I am feeling very out of sorts today. The out of sorts kind of feeling that you can’t quite put your finger on the reason for, but a general dissatisfaction, frustration and a definite feeling of lack of control over a situation.
Why is it that when you wait endlessly for some sort of communication be it e mail, text or phone call, it never comes and yet the situation is quite the opposite when that communication is unwanted? Who amongst us has not checked and rechecked their phone and e mail accounts endlessly in the hope that communication will have been made? And if it hasn’t then we have a choice. Do we get in touch with that person at the risk of looking desperate (it’s hard to be casual by text) or do we leave it and hope that they are not having the same thoughts as we are and have the courage to call us… it’s a dilemma and one that can’t be easily answered. Do we, by leaving the situation alone, communicate a sense of not being interested, or does it give the other person an easy out – they weren’t that into it anyway?
In the midst of my out of sorts day I don’t know the answer. I do however know that I don’t want to appear desperate and that rejection would be a disaster. So maybe I’ll do the sensible thing and leave well alone and if it is meant to be and fate and karma are working in my favour then the phone will ring or something will pop into my in box…maybe.